At first, I don’t know how to start this post. But there is one thing for sure, the emotion that is still behind every laughter that resides in my face. I still reminiscing those days that everything is set on its right place. I know for myself that I’d blow it off big time. It sad to say that I’d regret the fact that I’d missed that one shot, the chance that had given to me. Just a few more and the pursuit is over. I hate to see that happiness is getting blurry and fading away bit by bit as time passes by.

The only I can do right now is blame the whole thing on me. Stupid! What Am I thinking at that moment when all of the defenses are turned down? Being hard sometimes results to failure. I should take the consequences. I am just scared of being left behind with the fact that I don’t know who really I am caused by changes to attain certain compatibility issues.

I realized that nothing could make bring back to what it should be. It so hard wandering on a place where a strand of light you’re hoping for had no possibility to show at my sight. I am now losing all the hopes that I got. Sometimes, hanging on every moment could be tiring and in the long run, painful because of the sore heels, heels that are tired of chasing that strand of light.

As I take a look at myself, I start to fade away. If there will be a teardrop of hope that is reserved for me, I hope it’s not too late.